怨言

当初
为了较好的利益
我强迫自己做不喜欢的东西

现在
我得到了挺好的收获
但我不开心

我或许就不属于那一国
却偏偏要假装那里的国民
加上我有一张满舌剧毒的嘴
暗地里讨厌我也不感到稀奇

我自己看起来吊儿郎当
但给我的任务很少迟交
我努力做的东西
却不被重视
这么辛苦
值得吗

我真的希望时间能用跑的
至少跑到让我退位为止
或许我的快乐能再从新归位

（看了，请不要生气，也不要对号入座，除非你心虚）
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Kira...

听说．爱情

听说
爱情只需要一点冲动就行了
听说
爱情只需要一点勇气就行了
听说
爱情只需要一点暧昧就行了
听说
爱情只需要一点感觉就行了
听说
爱情……
爱情，还要听说吗？

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Kira...

想念

想念
以前的过去
想念
以前的甜蜜
想念
以前的喜怒哀乐
想念
以前的拥抱
想念
以前的亲吻
想念
以前的爱情
想念
以前……
以前……

:)

Inspiration from a song

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Kira...

赌瘾

他保持了沉默
她还选择忍受
他不想要拥有
她却没有放手
他与别人远走
她还想着以后
他已消失无踪
她却原地等候

她对他的痴迷
换来他的无情
她所犯的赌瘾
再也无法戒清

好久没有写博客了。本想把它放在OurVoiceBox.sg的，但我想编辑部应该很难通过，我的文笔也没很好。还是别丢人现眼了。还是放在自己博客比较好。我想我是神经病吧！这么忙了，却还有时间写这些东西。但生活若只有工作的话，我真的会崩溃。其实我已崩溃过了，可是身为领队的我却不能第一个倒下来。说实在，我真的没有一次想要当领队的，因为压力很大，大得我喘不过气。有时候，我怀疑了自己的本事，怀疑自己有没有那才能。可是没办法，走不掉了。我还能硬撑多久呢？说真的，我不知道。看着办吧。但说实在的，我还挺庆幸我拥有了很好的组员为我分担压力。我知道她们自己压力也很大，加油吧！我相信我们能够活着走完这四五个月的！

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Kira...

曾经的遗憾

不好意思。真得太久没有update blog了。真得不好意思。因为刚好忽然好像写一段文章。hehe！！

当两个人选择分手
是因为爱情来到了尽头
还是是因为冲动

两个人对彼此的承诺
为何到头来都无法遵守
难道天长地久是捏造出来的假象
还是两个人无法坚持到最后

失恋很痛
但为何还制造这场祸
难道彼此都不难过
难过两人的爱已划上句号

再一次成为朋友
还能为彼此守候
遗憾却藏在心中
无法再甜蜜牵手

我曾经伤得很深，但也从这伤口学了很多东西。这次的爱情，我不会再放手。失恋的痛，一次就足够了。

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KIRA

选择

忽略不是每一个人的本意
但很可惜
每一个人的专长就是忘记

被忽略是一件很可悲的事情
可是
以前被你忽略的人同样也很伤心

希望大家能打开你的心
试着了解每个人的难言之隐
忽略真的不是每个人的本意
只是每一个人的专长就是忘记

或许你会生气
或许你会伤心
但请你也记得那个人为你做的牺牲
别把一次的小意外放在心里

对不起
是唯一他能说的词语
原谅他与否
只能看你自己
但请你记得
你所做的一切
对将来的路途是具有影响力

你的选择
在于你！

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Kira

《简化》

（忽然有个灵感，想写这首歌。写得粗糙，请见谅。）

爱情本该复杂
让人无法自拔
你说你要简化
我无法回答

心忽然有莫名的伤
是否历史回到身上
我努力试着不去想
却想到是曾受的伤

是我活该
带给你伤害
坏男人和好女人
只会让彼此伤得更深

爱你
不是错的决定
我只想说对不起
因为我太爱你

（好啦！我想你们又要说我是不是有什么问题。放心，天蝎座很爱搞独自emo。：）该是去做功课了。）

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Kira...

四月二十三日

我想就这样牵着你的手不放开，爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀！
四月二十三日，难忘的日子，希望能保持到永远，永远不变！

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Kira...

两个白痴！

当友情转化成敌意
说明两人已有问题

当冷战转化成无情
说明两人都太固执

当回忆转化成垃圾
说明两人太过绝情

两个白痴！

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Kira...

Get Out!!

Get out of my sight!!
You just make me puke all night!!
Get out of my life!!
I don't want you to be my side!!

Just who the hell are you??

Ok, i'm jus being crazy right here!!

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Kira...

欲望

刚才去看了小乐（FM100.3比赛的战友）的博客
看到她其中一个post是放了《夜的第七章》的歌词

每个人为不同的理由
带着面具说谎
动机也只有一种名字
那叫做欲望

还记得有一次上哲学课时，讨论孟子的“性善说”及荀子的“性恶说”时有说到了欲望。那时候，有人为了证明人本性是恶，便说了婴儿也有欲望，并给了例子。这例子甚至还得到老师的同意！

这让人很难以置信，包括我在内。婴儿是如此地无辜，如此地洁净。但若从另一角度来说，婴儿就如《夜的第七章》的歌词所述，利用了人们对他的观念，去取得人们的注意力。

人本性真的是恶的吗？或许吧。我们其实把欲望附上非常美丽正面的名字，如目标，梦想等等。可是，在行为上，我们却是以不择手段的方法去实现我们的“梦想”，也就是我们的欲望。

有些人希望世界能和平。我只能说，这些人是个白日梦主义者。因为欲望存在的一天，世界就不会和平。这些人还是快点去学会如何好好地戴个面具，以免自己遭受别人的屠杀。

P.S：唱红《叶子》的阿桑已离开了人间。虽然你不是我的偶像，但我挺喜欢你的歌。希望你在天堂上有个快乐的生活。Rest in Peace!

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KIRA...

One month has gone!!

Hey, pai seh... long time nvr post le... well, very busy ma and oso very lazy!!! haha... Well... one month has passed!! Time flies eh... but i hope time flies more faster.. cos i miss s'pore!!!

Went to shanghai and suzhou last week... a bit disappointing la... i thought shanghai is so much fun but there is so polluted... haiz... but luckily there got ajisan and sushi... so ate a lot there... and oso plus our sch is so BUDGET, treat us such lousy food... of cos i hav to eat alot of sushi, especially UNAGI!!! Suzhou is not bad la... but i think hangzhou is much better...

went to shopping ytd... men's stuff is very expensive leh... even though already cut the original price more than half le... but still need 210rmb... I ony bought a slng bag and jeans leh... sadd...i actually want to buy a t-shirt one, but is dirtied and no more new one... sad leh... i saw that t-shirt 2 times and 2 times is dirty one...

Today went to cut my hair... IT IS SUCH A BAD EXPERIENCE!!! i actually had a bad experience once... so i changed shop... but this is worse!!! from 8 rmb can become almost thousand jus cos they wan to change hairstyle for me when i dun even know a thing... so i argue with them until i almost gg to call their manager then they stopped... they eventually give a much cheaper price which is like 350rmb... although they did better than the 1st one i go, but i will not cut hair in china again... cos they are nuts!!! is almost like 250 sing dollars if i never argue with them jus to change a hairstyle!!! i rather go singapore style my hair... haiz... first time need to argue wit the shop sia... if u all one day come to china and wan to cut your hair, tell them clearly u jus wan cut hair and dun wan make any changes!!! ask them to explain clearly or u will bankrupt easily!!

i hav upload photos in facebook le... feel free to go and see...

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KIRA...

离开，才是真正的爱

星期五从博库书店买了四本爱情小说，但目前为止我只读了《分手信》（英文版：Dear John）这一本，而这本也是我唯一真的想看的书本。（当然我还没读完这本书，我读书的速度没那么快，但也读完了这本书的第一章。）

走进书店，第一本吸引我的就是这本书了。能吸引我的第一个原因就是因为这本书的书名，《分手信》。第二则是在书名下的这句话：离开，才是真正的爱。

离开，也是爱的另一种方法吗？或许吧。毕竟电视剧常有这个台词：爱一个人不一定要拥有她，只要她能快乐幸福就可以了。

可是，人的本性是自私的。若没有什么特殊的原因，我相信没有一对情侣，或是暧昧的男女，想要离开彼此的。但，若在一起时是痛苦多于幸福，离开或许才能证实彼此的爱吧。

我很羡慕书里面的男女主角，能够有这么甜蜜的爱情。同时也为他们感到伤心，因为他们相处的时间太短暂了。我真的很期待这本书的第二章，不知这对男女的爱情的发展是否有什么戏剧性的变化之类的。

我觉得这本书真的很好看。或许你们可以去看英文版的吧。因为华文版本是从英文翻译出来的。或许英文版本的一些情节会表达得更好吧。

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Kira...

1st wk over!!!

Hey... back to blog!!! haha...well, the 1st wk is over!!! but there is still a long way to go!!!haha!!!

BUt unfortunately, i fell sick in the 1st wk!! ARGH!!! Is not that bad though, jus had a bad cough and a very small flu... but i think is going to be ok de... so dun worry...

On friday, most of us went to 西湖 and 灵隐寺/飞来峰 tour... The scenary is very nice!! Much better than S'pore!! 西湖 is a damn gd place for couple, cos there is very romantic!!! haha!!! 灵隐寺/飞来峰 is very big!! i actually wan to pray but there are too many statues for me to see,so... haha...

I actually had pics of the tour... but the size too big!! so next time ba... if i am free or i will jus post it in my facebook... haha...

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Kira...

Some sort of personality test results

Very sian... saw this test on zoe's blog... so i jus do it...

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haiz.. i think some ppl wun believe it de la... anw, that cough is getting on my nerves!!! ARGH!!! hope it get away soon!!!

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KIRA...

I am in China

Hey guys!! how u all doing?? I am well in China... Although the weather here is very cold!!! I miss you all... The ppl here is very good... happy to have them... i took lots of pics...

















i will load them in facebk as well... hope this few mths get over soon!!

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KIRA

Goodbye My Friends!!

再见我的朋友
虽然我不想走
但没办法
没有我的日子里
你们要照顾好自己
在这里
献给你们一首歌



去武汉的朋友，献给你们这首歌



发现两首歌的共同点吗？？
答案是：两首歌都有“春夏秋冬”！
ok，是很lame！
希望你们都会加油！
7月4号后见！

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KIRA...

HEAD PAIN

stupid exam... i jus cannot understand why lecturers cannot give a more direct hint or choice qns?? dun they know one of the authors have written 3 long stories?? how i gg to know which story is coming out?? am i gg to read all?? i already read 3 long stories in one go le...

and for poems sections, ony one will come out yet u wan us to study 17 poems?? WAT CRAP!!! and some is not even in the book?? wat the hell is this??

ARGH!!! JuS IDIOtiC!!! BaCk To STuDies...

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KIRA...

情人节快乐

情人节快乐！
快乐？真得快乐吗？
今年的情人节
我被打回原点
哈哈
本来就该这样
去年只不过是一场梦
梦是不会成真的，不是吗？

不管怎么样，还是祝你们情人节快乐！

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KIRA...

DAMN!!!

Finally my laptop has revived... But my hp spoiled.... ARGH!!! Lost all my contacts once again... so pls, if u see this post... msg me your handphone number... my hp no. never change... i using another phone now... 6100 navigator... hope it can be my gd partner ba... haha...

OMG!!!

OMG!! My LAPTOP SUDDENLY DIE!!! have to go fix it tmr... hope it can revive b4 china trip... sorry my proj grpmates... hope my sis laptop can help me to overcome the hard times...

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KIRA...

输赢

“输赢真的那么重要吗？”

当友谊成为了输赢的关系，
这也说明这份友谊是如此地
脆弱。

甲认识乙已有一年多
从陌生人到好同学
好同学到好朋友（至少甲把乙当好朋友）
甲的心事、秘密
都只有乙
最清楚

可是
美好的东西往往很早就枯萎
他们或许太了解彼此
渐渐地
他们的性格开始有了冲突

她的霸道
她的野蛮
她的小姐脾气
甲忍受

他不善解人意
他的暴力倾向
他的工作方式
乙忍受

终于火山爆发了
甲和乙终于受不了彼此的性格
甲正式走他自己的阳光道
乙也正是走她自己的独木桥
他们的友谊正式决裂。

是否是冷战
谁也不清楚
就连甲自己也不了解
他起初只觉得乙这次太过分了
他再也无法忍受原谅乙。

可是后来甲的怒消了
但他知道如果他先向乙低头认错
以后乙更加会骑在他头上
而且甲也发现
周围的朋友常要甲先对乙开口说话
然后渐渐他们也开始疏远他
似乎是要为乙出口气。

起初甲对乙只有怒气
但后来甲对乙
甚至对周围的朋友
开始有了恨意

他恨为什么朋友只站在乙的立场去判断
为何从不站自己的立场去观察
他知道在利益上
乙能给的比他多
………………
了解了。

甲不敢奢望乙会向自己认错
他也了解乙不会这样

有一天
他与另外一对朋友突然聊起这件事
聊了很久
这个朋友忽然在临走前对他说
“输赢真的那么重要吗？”

甲没有回答
这问题也开始在他脑海盘旋着
“输赢真的那么重要吗？”

忽然
甲露出了一丝微笑
他终于发现
原来友谊
从认识到了解
其实根本就处于输赢的关系
脆弱

End

i actually have the urge to write a script of this topic, but too many homework le la... so shortcut ba... haha...

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KIRA...

NS SONG(LOL)

very interesting... can watch...

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KIRA...

SINGLISH!!!

Damn FUNNY!!

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KIRA...

自己

每一次的呼吸
心里一直在哭泣
对你的感情
从来不曾怀疑
属于我们的回忆
不知你是否已忘记

看到自己的倒影
望着憔悴的自己
我知道能让我这样
只有你而已
无心开了播音机
忽然听到张敬轩的歌曲

“分手前的雨天
我记得脸上的雨点
时间忽然停了天空也是黑的
我都看不见
分手前的雨天
像一张凝固的相片
没有方向的我孤单站在马路边”

看到自己的倒影
望着憔悴的自己
我知道能让我这样
只有你而已
无心开了播音机
忽然听到张敬轩的歌曲

“那个分手的雨天
我忘了脸上的雨点
世界再说什么还会给我什么
我都听不见
分手前的雨天
我听见心中的雷电
午后那一场雨也许扭转了一切”

听完这首歌曲
对你独一无二的感情
再也无法忘记

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KIRA...

ＮＯ ＬＩＦＥ

我没有ＬＩＦＥ
ＬＩＦＥ是什么
我不知道

我问自己为什么现在还活着
为了爱情？没有喜欢的人。
为了友情？没有很好的朋友。
为了亲情？还有两个姐姐。

我的生活没有目的。
我喜欢孤单。
我想要解脱。

人心险恶
好心没好报
人善被人欺
无法抵挡
只能学着看开、忍受

一了百了
很神圣
但做不到
或许有某种任务要我痛苦地活着
希望那任务能尽早结束
让我能够永远安稳入睡

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KIRA...

I think i am mad!!

ya, i think i am mad le... mad in what sense?? i dun noe... my hair, my mood , my personality?

i dun giv a damn anw... Laugh all u wan behind my back... Jus dun bother me anymore!!

I regret my choice of going a place i dun wan to go to, I regret what i chose to study... Why i always make the wrong choice, torturing my life in the end??

JUST GET OUT OF MY WORLD!!!

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KIRA

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

YO!! HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYBODY!!! haha... HOPE U ALL HAVE FUN EH?? well, i am quite lazy and unconvenient to go out and play(cos of my teeth)... But, is alrite... there is always another year...(unless god wan me to accompany him early)(touchwood)... haha...

Well, a brand new 2009 will of course have a brand new 2009 resolution. So what is mine??

Dada...


haha, wrote that during outing wit HMS society comm at esplanade!! is very lame la actually... cos saw someone wrote that she wans a bf in 2009, so i oso very lame, trying to reply her i wan a gf too... can contact me if she interested... haha...

well... i know need fate de la... so i dun dare to carry any hopes...

another new year resolution is:

HOPE TO HAVE ADD ANOTHER REALLY TRUE FRIEND SOON!!!

I dun hav much true frenz... what is the definition of my true friend? well, is someone that i can share all my secrets with him/her, no need to hide my true self from him/her... but, i think is tough la... Everybody is born to this world with motives, including me... thus,a person with motives, is usually dangerous to u as they may easily hurt u unintentionally or even with purpose... but, this cannot be avoided, rite??

WELL, i have to go study le... stupid test is coming soon... haha...

(P.S: if anyone who plays FIFA online 2, pls add me kiralight90... can challenge me if u want, but check whether your com got lag first b4 u versus me...)

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KIRA